A very hard week

This was one of the hardest weeks we have faced as a family since last March when Nathan was laid off. Even now, we are struggling to deal with all that has happened.

We did not bring in any new clients last week, but that is to be expected. It usually takes two weeks before interested parties become official clients. We have found more than one interested party, but no one is official yet. For me, it's not a done deal until I see a signature on a contract and have a deposit check in hand.

It seems that we made a gigantic mistake in ceasing to market for two months when we hired a marketing person. It was not bad to hire the guy, only to stop marketing while he was still in his probationary period.

As a result, we will be three months behind on our mortgage tomorrow. The "deal" the mortgage company tried to work out with us is totally unfeasible. We will not accept the offer, because we simply can't meet the terms. This means we have until February 20 to pay two months worth of mortgage or face foreclosure proceedings.

Nathan and I were not able to get on the same page about our situation until we first had a nasty fight. It broke our hearts that we were so mean to each other, but we really were. The fight was on Thursday night. Friday morning we looked at each other and MADE ourselves get on the same page. We are in this together, so there is no point in attacking one another! To tell you the truth, agreeing to disagree and play on the same team has moved us out of the misery we were in. Now, we are taking steps to get through this.

Nathan does not want to sell the house, so he is planning to work as hard as he can to bring in enough money to get us out of hot water. I have agreed to help him by continuing to market two times a week.

I, however, feel a sense of urgency to sell this house. When we first moved in, it was very affordable to us, since we both worked full-time. I don't have an outside job and don't plan to get one, since the cost of daycare and Georgia's pedophile rate are both sky-high. I expect that LDF will get back on its feet, but realistically, that could take a month or more. So I am working on selling the house.

And that, my friend, is where we are right now. The pressure has been turned up, and we have a very real deadline. Even though all of that is true and it is our reality, let me tell you some things I am grateful for:

1) Through all of Satan's attacks on our marriage (and they have been numerous and serious) God has blessed us infinitely more. When the heat turns up, we get uncomfortable, and sometimes react in the flesh. God always helps us to become more refined and stronger! We choose to honor our vows: "In sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer, as long as we both shall live."

2) Sony continues to be healthy and happy.

3) We have a church that we are visiting, and even have an invitation to eat supper at the pastor's house this week.

4) We are in relatively good health these days. The illness we have faced has only been a result of stress. We trust that as we face this time, the Lord will help us to handle our stress better.

5) The new library in Savannah is wonderful, and gives us a place to get away to, and find some recreation.

6) Our families are being very supportive of us, and not judging us.

7) The Lord is keeping us fed and clothed.

8) If we do lose the house and walk away absolutely penniless and in debt, we both have family that have offered to take us in.

9) GOD IS FOR US, THEREFORE NO ONE CAN BE AGAINST US!

Please pray for us, that God's will will be done, and that we will be faithful to learn all that He has for us!